Frustrations

I did day 3 today, still wanting to die by the end of it.  But, she does motivate you at the right spots.  When you feel like dying and giving up-she pushes you.  Its the first time I've really felt that in a DVD. 

Today I am frustrated.  Its weigh in day, and I've only lost 4lbs.  I realize that ONLY 4 is still 4lbs, and I should  be happy that they're forever gone.....but its difficult to feel like that.  I feel like I've made improvements that should have allowed me to lose more.  I'm trying not to let it get me down, I worked out today and plan to keep moving forward...but my pride is hurt.  DH says he can see changes in my body....but the evil bitch inside me says "Of course he'll say that..you're like Medusa walking around his house right now."  

Its such a roller coaster.  If I was reading this as someone else, I would encourage this person to keep moving on.  4 lost is better than 4 gained!  Those 4lbs make you 4lbs closer to your goal, 4lbs closer to who you want to be physically.  And the changes you made haven't been impossible.  Every small change leads to greater ones. 

The evil bitch inside says BULLSHIT.  LOL  I suppose if I can laugh about it a little the day is not lost.  I keep looking at people's before and after pictures to keep myself motivated.  It does help, and I know that eventually I will see something happen.  I'm just not a patient person.  So, for now I will just keep repeating "Something will happen, keep moving forward."